No, I haven't died, but I have moved to a new account.

You can reach me here: [link]

I've moved home from Kentucky, I've brought home gifts for everyone to view.

Mood: o O (not dead yet..)
Listening to: Phenomena - Yeah Yeah Yeah's
Reading: Still trying to write my own...

Pathetic plea.

Pathetic plea

Self-evident declaration

Punctuated despair and pathetic plea

Rhetorical question and wishful thinking

Pathetic plea and self-evident futility

Pause and resumption

Plaintive self-pity

Pause and resumption

Awareness and interest

Sudden realization and flood of jubilance

Second and self-evident declaration

Self-reassurance and calmness

Awareness and suspicion

Nonspecifically directed interrogative

Quasi-specifically directed interrogative and wishful thinking

Reckless presumption and exuberance

Quasi-specifically directed interrogative

Relation-creative-purposive address and wavering certainty

Pause and closer inspection

Awareness and corollary certainty

Quasi-specifically directed interrogative, extended presumption, uncertainty, and

incipient inquietude

Awareness and reflex panic

Nonspecifically directed imperative directive, growing panic, and wishful thinking

Reflex defensive assertion and specifically directed, imbedded directive

Plaintive plea, specifically directed, elliptical imperative directive, deplorable

capitulation, and fear

Plaintive plea, specifically directed, imperative directive, and unmitigated fear

Awareness, plaintive plea, specifically directed, elliptical imperative directive and

Recoil

Nonspecifically directed declaration

Imperative directive and indifference

Specifically directed interrogative, information interrogative

Rhetorical question and scorn

Reflex defensive assertion and disconcertedness

Complacent declaration and haughtiness

Ruffled retort and slight exasperation

Complacent, rhetorical question and indifference

Punchy, reflex dismissal and assertive interrogative

Rhetorical question and vestigial condescension

Internal conflict and strained suppression of ire

Self-satisfaction and pleasure

Earnest interrogative

Reflex ludicrous response

Rebuff and strained patience

Self-righteous clarification, feigned admiration, and slight exasperation

Declaration, disapproval, and mild annoyance

Snappy retort and scorn

Pause and discomfiture

Indifference

Declaration and impatience

Malicious, absurd suggestion

Pause and frustration

Supercilious explanation

Helplessness and dissatisfaction

Dismissal and indifference

Earnest opinion

Complacent, self-evident declaration

Tested tolerance

Indifference

Nonspecifically directed rhetorical question, befuddlement, and slight exasperation

Sudden expletive and flood of annoyance

Preplanned self-assured clarification and latent affront

Indirect plaintive declaration and annoyance

Childish declaration of self-exculpation

Brusque imperative directive and dismissal

Semi-interested interrogative, information interrogative, and blatant check

Patronizing reminder

Interrogative and skepticism

Patronizing reminder and deliberate condescension

Derisive rhetorical question, slight amusement, and intimated challenge

Rhetorical question, information interrogative, and contemptuousness

Complacent observance and purposive display

Self-righteous retort, contemptuousness, and intimated challenge

Disappointment and frustration

Internal revel

Solemn declaration, indirect caution, and hint directive

Complacent declaration, haughtiness, imperative directive, disdain

Ire

Self-assuredness and indifference

Nonspecifically directed rhetorical question, information interrogative, and curiosity

Sudden expletive, imbedded imperative directive, and annoyance

Hasty declaration and mitigating clarification

Complacent declaration, exasperation, and need directive

Interrogative and lurking suspicion

Reflex argumentative assertion and intimated challenge

Calm declaration and casual dismissal

Overly agreeable concurrence, brusquely feigned deference, and blatant causticity

Scrutinizing exclamation and marvel

Sudden expletive, condescension, and voluminous annoyance

Awkward concession, shock, and fading effervescence

Directive with imbedded threat and annoyance

Mitigating concession and daunt

Disgust

Discomfiture and uncertainty

Pause and mild annoyance

Awareness and curiosity

Blunt dismissal, imperative directive, and annoyance

Approving exclamation and admiration

Offhand derogatory dismissal and pomposity

Adverse skepticism

Authoritative directive

Considerate interrogative, suggestive reminder, skepticism, and latent criticism

Dictatorial dismissal and didactic explanation

Doubt

Assurance and disdainfulness

Conceded accordance

Authoritative directive and eagerness

Casual acknowledgement

Directive and disdain

Casual acknowledgement and agreement

Stalwart declaration and biased speculation

Earnest declaration, reminder, intimated compromise, and purposive check

Self-assured declaration, anticipation, stimulation, and deliberate inattention

Hesitance and mistrust

Self-important dismissal and indifference

Callous acknowledgement

Nonspecifically directed declaration, consideration, and interest

Jeering declaration, hint directive, and purposive interference

Self-assured dismissal and disregard

Specifically directed interrogative and agitation

Rhetorical question and smugness

Imperative directive and testiness

Mitigating concession, surprise, elliptical imperative directive, and fading

effervescence

Critical declaration, referential reminder, and implied, imputed warning

Pause, surprise, and uncertainty

Critical declaration, indirect plaintive declaration, and anger

Preplanned explanation, wishful thinking, declaration of self-exculpation

Derisive rhetorical question, implied, imputed warning, and intimated challenge

Mitigating clarification, referential reminder, steadiness, and slight humor

Quasi-patronizing declaration, implied, imputed warning, hint directive, and hesitancy

Mitigating ludicrous explanation, imperative directive, and humor

Rebuff, false concession, latent affront, and dissatisfaction

Mitigating concession, passive directive, and declaration

Specifically directed interrogative, suspicion, and self-satisfaction

Reflex ludicrous response and feigned benevolence

Scorn and doubt

Mitigating explanation and impeding reminder

Interrogative and curiosity

Declaration and pensiveness

Quasi-dismissal, jeering reminder, and humor

Sudden interrogative, deliberate deference, and intimated challenge

Pause, uncertainty, and fruitlessness

Self-evident, didactic declaration

Brusque correction and purposive interference

Preplanned explanation, smugness, declaration of self-exculpation

Derisive interrogative, information interrogative, and intimated challenge

Patronizing reminder

Critical declaration, false concession, curiosity, latent affront, and dissatisfaction

Preplanned clarification and intimated challenge

Derisive rhetorical question

Didactic quotation, pride, and imbedded excuse

Interrogative, curiosity, and reflex defensive protest

Patronizing reminder

Critical interrogative, curiosity, mistrust, and amusement

Calm directive and smugness

Reflex dismissal, aloofness, and quasi-patronizing reminder

Preplanned explanation, imperative directive, calmness, and high hopes

Deferential interrogative, interest, uncertainty, and closer inspection

Stalwart declaration, biased opinion, deliberate denigration, and pleasure

Awareness, shock, and disgust

Casual acknowledgement and internal revel

Sudden exclamation, suspicion, internal conflict

Didactic declaration, stalwart proposition, biased conclusion, and disdain

Passive declaration, imbedded concurrence, and resigned admission

Stalwart declaration, self-assuredness, and accusation with finality

Earnest opinion, hesitancy, and internal struggle

Didactic quotation, self-assuredness, and insinuation of stalwart conclusion

Earnest opinion, hint directive and implied, imputed warning

Specifically directed information interrogative and annoyance

Imperative directive, deliberate neglect, and gravity

Elliptical interrogative and dismissive boredom

Imperative directive and suspicion

Contempt

Elliptical interrogative, tested tolerance, imbedded warning

Interrogative, smugness, and disinterest

Critical declaration, imbedded, imputed warning, and anger

Preplanned explanation, wishful thinking, declaration of self-exculpation

Derisive rhetorical question, implied, imputed warning, and intimated challenge

Mitigating clarification, referential reminder, and steadiness

Declaration and hint directive

Stalwart declaration and exasperation

Lingering suspicion

Declaration of self-exculpation and bloated patriotism

Uncertainty and discomfiture

Elliptical interrogative, imbedded challenge, and skepticism

Information, interrogative and anger

Derisive declaration and scorn

Defensive declaration and denial

Condescending declaration and false sympathy

Stalwart declaration and sudden annoynace

Patronizing declaration, mock deference, and self-assured dismissal

Self-righteous retort, contemptuousness, and intimated challenge

Indignance and annoyance

Smugness and imbedded challenge

Mitigating concession, sudden interest, hint directive, and interrogative

Complacent declaration

Calm declaration and latent affront

Pause and frustration

Elliptical interrogative and mild curiosity

Calm declaration and patronizing reminder

Marked satisfaction

Casual interest

Rhetorical interrogative, hint directive, and high hopes

Denial, interest, and dread

Imperative directive, smugness, and pleasure

Imperative directive and suspicion

Preplanned explanation and information declaration

Awareness, numbness, and shock

Eager anticipation and giddiness

Elliptical interrogative, imbedded challenge, suppressed disdain, and dismissal

Casual acknowledgement and internal revel

Interrogative, numbness, and suspicion

Preplanned explanation and information declaration

Passive declaration and internal conflict

Interrogative, stalwart proposition, biased conclusion, and superiority

Passive declaration, defiance

Overly agreeable concurrence, brusquely feigned deference, condescension, and blatant

sarcasm

Calm declaration

Didactic quotation, bias, and superciliousness

Denial, irritation, and patronizing reminder

Stalwart declaration, self-assuredness, and accusation with finality

Earnest opinion, hesitancy, and internal struggle

Didactic quotation, self-assuredness, and insinuation of stalwart conclusion

Pause, uncertainty, and fruitlessness

Imperative directive and undaunted dismissal

Pause and reluctance

Obstinacy, anticipation, and implied, imputed challenge

Grudgingly conceded accordance

Specifically directed interrogative, information directive, agitation, and slight

exasperation

Awareness, declaration, alarm, fading confidence

Hint directive, urgency, and disbelief.

Concurrence and acknowledgement

Awareness and interrogative

Consideration and dismissal

Pause and assent

Discomfiture

Awareness, specifically directed interrogative, information directive, and dread

Uncertainty, anxiety, and reluctance

Information interrogative and suspicion

Specifically directed, self-evident imperative directive and disquiet

Strain, suspicion and curiosity

Internal conflict

Imputed interrogative, awareness, shock, and disbelief

Smooth check, information declaration

Information interrogative and curiosity

Complacent declaration and vestigial condescension

Interrogative and concern

Self-evident declaration, dismissal, assurance, and disdain

Quasi-patronizing declaration, impeding reminder, and dissatisfaction

Information declaration, referential reminder, and haughtiness

Solemn declaration, indirect caution, and hint directive

Complacent declaration, haughtiness, and apathy

Imperative directive, implied, imputed warning

Imperative directive, purposive check, implied, imputed warning, and pugnacity

Hesitancy, doubt, and closer inspection

Indifference

Awareness, befuddlement, and information interrogative

Deliberate inattention and absurd suggestion

Distrust, interest, strained patience, and resigned closer inspection

Pause and ambivalence

Awareness, surprise, and self-doubt

Assurance

Information declaration, non-specifically directed hint directive, and disbelief

Imperative directive and latent humor

Pause and closer inspection

Feigned encouragement and condescension

Awareness and surprise

Assurance and smugness

Information declaration, exclamation, and disbelief

Didactic explanation

Shock and dread

Self-evident, rhetorical interrogative

Weak acknowledgment, information declaration, and horror

Information declaration and self-assurance

Passive imperative, wishful thinking and worry

Quasi-critical declaration and impeding reminder

Self-evident declaration, fading effervescence and jadedness

Nonspecifically directed, self-assured declaration

Earnest interrogative

Stalwart declaration, exasperation, and latent bitterness

Information interrogative and vestigial disgruntlement

Calm declaration, mutual reassurance, commiseration, and hope

Awareness and curiosity

Specifically directed interrogative and wishful thinking

Apprehension-bordering discomfiture

Declaration and bittersweet humor

Sudden realization, shock, and apprehension

Patronization, affected sympathy, and imbedded threat

Punchy retort and condescending dismissal

Panic

Declaration of mild annoyance

Specifically directed, information interrogative and anxiety

Mitigating ludicrous assessment and humor

Sudden expletive and flood of annoyance

Derisive rhetorical question

Brusque imperative directive and dismissal

Conceded tolerance and mocking patience

Specifically directed interrogative and prepared deference

Facile declaration and hint directive

Information interrogative and curiosity

Nonspecifically directed imperative directive and sharp apathy

Uncertainty, internal conflict, fading confidence, and resigned concession

Specifically directed imperative directive and relentless affirmation

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Pretty much sums up all 7 months I've been here. A series of different moods and moments all merging together to create this anachronism of just what is. I didn't know if I had it in me anymore to come up with something like this.

I might break it down for everyone next week, but for now, I'll see who reads what I've written and lets hope that it inspires you all.

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emma
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Mood: o O (i'm so tired.)
Listening to: Ghost of You - MCR
Reading: 1984..........still.

Well its been about a month since I found myself in Kentucky. Now I am sitting in Berea College typing to you, or whoever still reads this. I do apologize for not updating this for so long, I intend to post new artwork and somehow come up with the time to remake my Xanga page.

Jordan has started college today, meaning I'm going to be living alone with his parents most of the time. The only issue that I have with this is that his dad is not very articulate. Yeah. He's hillbilly. However I do have Boris around, and he's here to keep me company, I'm still concerned that his parents might either get sick of him or he's going to somehow get outside and run away.

Monticello seems to somewhat have its perks. I remember somewhere in Kentucky that there was a gas station that had a sign in lovely bold letters that read: "no servise for niggers" Yes.... servise..... not service. Lovely huh?

My parents' feud is still going on. My mother is hopefully moving into a new house in Mulvane, she needs a roomate so um... Jess? Do you want to move in with mi mama? Si? No? Bueno!

My dad has a new girlfriend who (this is funny...) is a psychiatric nurse. My dad, a psycho vet from Vietnam..... and Pam.... a nurse from Boston... no wait... Las Vegas.... no! wait!! Georgia.

I'm sure your asking about that last little bit. To explain this is to only make me laugh more. My dad lied to my grandmother, to my mother and even to yours truly as to where "Pam" is really from. The newest about her is that shes from Match.com or some other different dating site... oh and guess what.... she moved in with him after only knowing him since Christmas.

So yeah, here's my dad bitching about my mother sleeping with Billy, when in reality, my dad wasn't helping my mother out at all (unless if you count the countless bitching, screaming and the fuck you's) which has been going on for years now.

My phone was shut off due to the fact that my dad wasn't able to help me out in that department. But I sent an email explaining to him about my phone and he said that he would help me out... that i think, is the only thing he's done for me since Christmas.

So blah de blah and yadda yadda... thats about it for now. I hope everyone had a few good holidays. I'm finally 19, and I'm finally out of Kansas.

Drugs and Lub,

Emma

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emma
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Mood: o O (eeee)

Well I'm in Kentucky.... but I have no internet. Oh poo. Well Don't worry you'll all be slap-happy to know that I have a nude model that allowed me to use his skin on my site. So woot for me. That's about it. Eventually the net will be up for me, but until then, leave me comments, or call me... my number is--- oh wait I forgot... my phone is suspended... nevermind. hehe take care.

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emma
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